Bailey Rae: 'I was deluded over loss'

Corinne Bailey Rae has said that she was in shock for a long time after the death of her husband Jason last year.

The singer-songwriter told The Observer that she struggled to get on with her life after Jason's accidental overdose of methadone and alcohol.

Bailey Rae said: "I laugh now at how deluded I was. I felt like everything would somehow go back to normal if I got on with things but, in reality, I was still in shock.

"I didn't do anything for a year. I mean, nothing. Everyone was asking, 'What have you done?' But I had nothing to show them. I didn't go anywhere. I didn't write anything. I didn't work.

"I sat at my kitchen table for a whole year, people came and people went, life drifted by. It was just bleak. Bleak."

She added: "I did think that I could never do this sort of thing again because if anyone asked me about Jason, I would just explode.

"For a long time, I didn't even try and write. It was just too big a thing, too raw. It was just too destructive to make anything creative out of. All I wanted to do was destroy things.

"And I'm really not that type so it was all these emotions that were totally alien to me. It was just a bleak, empty, hollow nothing."