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BB Nadia: 'Suicide attempt was accidental'

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Ultimate Big Brother housemate Nadia Almada has claimed that she never meant to take a drug overdose and regrets letting her emotions get the better of her.

The reality TV star, who was rushed to hospital days after her eviction from house, explained how she struggled to cope with the public backlash that followed her return and feared that her image as a role model may have been irrevocably destroyed.

"I look back and think it was an accidental overdose," she joked on a podcast by website Just Plain Sense. "I kind of have to laugh about it because it was so stupid the way I acted, but really deep down it was a cry for help.

"I wanted somebody to help me and nobody was forthcoming about it and I couldn’t trust Endemol, I couldn’t trust Big Brother, I couldn't trust Channel 4 because they had demoralised everything that I had built and created for myself, so I was very lost. And I was so disappointed that they failed to kinda protect me."

Although she confessed that she now feels embarrassed by her actions, Almada remained adamant that she had genuinely wanted to die at the time of her overdose.

"I just didn’t want to feel any pain. I wanted to not feel anything. I was guilty, I was sad, I was disappointed, I was angry, I had all those emotions and I just wanted to numb them all.

"I started drinking and accidentally took a few more than I should and I shouldn't have started taking them in the first place, I should have been able to deal with my emotions but I'm only human."

Almada previously claimed that her treatment by Big Brother host Davina McCall and fellow contestant Ulrika Jonsson contributed to her downward spiral and eventual suicide attempt.

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